teddy

Going through life everyday is a feat sometimes. There are days when you feel so emotionally low out of simple things in this complicated world. It’s a matter of reaching the point of boredom, which is my greatest foe. I hate to complicate about this issue because it unveils more dreadful things.

At some point, denying the existence of boredom becomes a goal. Walking without direction or dreaming in Neverland for hours and hours. This is a bit sick for me because it drains my energy sometimes.

With my line of reasoning here, I could be construed as somebody with so many problems which are Herculean. Actually, I have minor or petty problems at that. Maybe, this has escalated (or not) due to my over-emphasis or the lack of something to think about.

As I deal with all these issues, I also think about my future plans as well. It seems like I’m threading practicability here. What are my options and how will I go about it considering the repercussions and underpinning dynamics involved.

To make this simple story a bit complicated and with a sense of drama if possible, I share this to Teddy. However, not all the time Teddy is with me so I jot down all my thoughts in pieces of paper or scratch paper in order to forget and leave behind boredom in a corner.

A month from now, I will be adding be another year of existence in this world. At this point in time, I’m already thinking and reflecting what will I do on that memorable (or not) day. So far, I’m planning to wake up late like 9:00 AM or 10:00 PM or just go to work and consider it a typical day. Maybe I’ll buy myself a Harry Potter: Book 7, which is the last edition of the famous series, or none at all.

In summary, all these things are jumbled together. I don’t want these things to be sorted out for the benefit of an outsider. I guess this is enough to take me out of my sleepy state.

Good riddance!